April 14, 2008...1:18 am
talking to myself
Since this blog isn’t getting read it’s going to be a sort of online journal for me. I have had a week off and it’s been really nice. Relaxing, I got to do things like start this blog and create an avatar at second life. Holy Guac, is second life a trip. It’s completely interactive simms. People, I am sure, let second life take over first life…making skins and homes and building islands. Many first life businesses have storefronts in second life. There’s an economy in second life. It’s like giving dimension to your fantasies. It has a lot of appeal…you can change your appearance on a whim, hide your name and be who or whatever you want to be. I think that can be very liberating. It’s a good example of how unreal this world is…it’s also a good example of what happens when people are left to their own devices…unchecked by consequences. Anything goes…you can indulge every fantasy. I wonder if that’s a good or bad thing over time.
I know from my own experience in trying to attain heightened spiritual awareness the thing that’s been the most troublesome is the mind. In two ways…I have always had a code of conduct for myself. It’s not that my parents were particularly strict but that I had an internal drive to be good and right. I made a lot of rules for myself…standards to live by…but then as the spiritual questions kept coming up over and over again, I was challenged on what I “believed” to be true. Sometimes those beliefs were so firmly in place I would feel a physical pop in some part of my body as I confronted and released them.
The problem with letting go of that kind of thing is what to do next. How do you act, what is ok and what isn’t ok. It’s more complicated than it sounds. In a lot of ways the simms world is accurate…there’s no guilt..we are as permanent as simms. On the other side of that, we have souls where simms are only simms.
This navigation between truly letting go and then coming back into my ever questioning mind has been the biggest struggle for me. Causes me the most suffering. It’s kind of amazing what I have been able to let go of, but I do struggle with this. I know this isn’t a read blog, but if someone should stumble upon it and has some insight to offer about this topic, I would certainly like to hear it.
Cheers
1 Comment
April 14, 2008 at 5:17 am
Get out of Second Life while you still can. Believe me… been there… done that. Two years of my life were wasted, before I realized the truth.
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